TENTH DIARY – Written Words on Passing Pages

I wish I could catch these waves I wish I could hold them and tell You can't just touch me and leave Every sparkle you make as you move Makes a million bubbles dance in me

A thousand emotions Jumbled in my heart Ache to come out To be heard and felt By a special someone Sensing an absence I push them back Back to my heart Into a life of oblivion I feel the crowd I sense the pain I dip myself In a boundless hope

On that seashore Still lies my foot prints Lost somewhere in the sand Perhaps, a bit faded with time Perhaps a bit blown off But still having the same shape

When I was around ten years old, I had developed an immense fear of rains. I lived in a hostel, and the hostel warden had set strict rules against going out in the rain, even for a minute, even for 10 seconds. No stepping out in the courtyard when it was raining. For we could catch a cough, and fever, and pneumonia, and whatnot. I saw some of my friends getting a fever and being scolded for getting into the rain. Once I was myself subjected to it. And thus, I developed this fear, based on evidence. With time, I forgot how I used to enjoy rains. When I was much younger, living in my village, I used to love it when it rained. I would sneak out, run around and bath. I would jump in mud; I would run around houses. I would come below the drainpipe of roofs of concrete houses and enjoy the stream of water falling on my head. I would love every beat of that stream striking my body, like it was a waterfall, like it was a game, like it was an eternal gift of nature. Often, I would go a ...

That day will come soon When the parallel paths We are walking on Will diverge; For we know, Our destinations are different Leading poles apart, may be To places, from where We won't be able To see each other, And may be, We'd be too busy In our own lives To miss the other; But till that day comes May we laugh? May we live this life? May we celebrate this moment that we have got by a chance? For sometime, near the very end Of this journey, If we miss each other, We don't avoid Thinking about this moment.

A feather fell White as cloud From the blue sky Dwindling, withering Down to ground

Looking at the moon Sometimes it hides from me Sometimes it comes up Don't know what is the reason But for some reason I feel Sometimes I feel It is It is in love with me You know the clouds What it hides Why it hides Secrets It does hide secrets Behind it The clouds around it The light around it Tries to reveal The secret But it hides What it knows Against the wishes Against the aspirations Of those who want to know What it knows

I cried at the mountain peak I smiled at the ocean bottom I wept on the horizons I laughed in the storms For happiness was where I felt it And I was sad where I was sad Achieving what I desired Didn't make me happy For when I got what I wanted I wanted something else Something more, something different I cried for it I craved for it But often I laughed At some small little achievements I danced, I shouted Feeling a fulfillment at heart For something I didn't even dream But got that by a chance Didn't even plan to celebrate But celebrated with happiness For I was happy, because I felt it And I had cried because I had cried Who knows where the life will take to What the destiny is But I imagine, I plan, I work I fail, I succeed I smile, I laugh A small little smile For the failures A big laugh For the gains Sometimes I cry laughing Sometimes I laugh crying And the journey goes on With some tears With some smiles

And he fell Like a yellow leaf Dancing in the wind Swirling, turning, twisting And as it got down It didn't have any remorse No grudges, no wishes Happy for the life it led Happy for what lay ahead

Shining bright on the top Yellow leaf of the green tree Danced as the wind stopped In the rhythm of the flowers And of the leaves Dying, yet adding beauty For life never stops The world never stops For it knows It'll fall to ground But the tree will rise

The moon kept rising Higher up in the sky In the bright day light Invisible, quiet, unnoticed And as the sun went west They saw two discs In the same sky

A thousand steps taken, A thousand more to take, On this dark curvy road, With turns and slopes. Step by step I'm moving ahead, Every step gives a jerk, Every step gives a hope, In this bright night With moonlit dreams And shining wishes For one more day.

Isn't it strange! Never met you Never seen you Don't even know Much about you But your smile Brings me smile Tears in your eyes Make me feel sad I keep waiting For hours and days For a message from you, To know something about you To listen to you, and to know How are you? Sometimes I wonder, Do you feel the same As I do?

Yet another wait With patience For a smile; Another wish For one more step On a swinging path For the moving goal; Every wait a mirage Flickering, shining Raising hopes, Ecstasy

When you look back You should realise Not all days are equal Some of them decided To make you what you are When you look forward You should realise You can have some control On what these days decide Making them what you want

A case came to her court She herself was the accused For stealing a heart Advocacy was being done By herself, for both sides She was the jury She was the judge And she had to decide Whether to keep the heart Or return it back